on saturday, bubba, wera, & ray came & picked me up & we went to fiesta village. we played in the batting cages! i've never done that before, so i was really scared! but i hit like 4 or 5 balls, i was so proud of myself. my arm is still a little sore from it though. then we went to mcdonalds so they could eat, & wera was wearing my hat, & one of the guys that worked there came up to her & was all talking to her about it, asking if it was a russian hat, we just told him it was haha. he kept trying to remember the name of the russian hat, but he couldn't so we walked away from him. then while we were eating, bubba did/said something so funny, i ended up spitting my soda out all over the table & all on my face! right when i did that, the worker came up again, he'd remembered the name, he didn't even notice that i was choking, laughing, & covered in soda. finally i interuppted him & asked him for napkins, & when he came back, i had my hat on, & he told me he was in love with me, hahahaha. then after they were done eating, we went into the little play area & we were taking so many pictures of ourselves climbing inside that big thing, i dunno the name of it, lol. we had a LOT more fun @ mcdonalds than we did @ fiesta village!

yesterday, my mom had to go to south central L.A. for work. we were all up in crenshaw & ish. 2 of my friends told me a while back, if i ever went to crenshaw, i'd prolly get raped, jacked, & beat up because i'ma white girl. well they were wrong. infact when we were in crenshaw, no one even stared at us, & we were stopped in the middle of the street taking pictures of their houses (for mom's work), but when we were in mcdonalds in korea town, to go peepee, everyone was just staring at us the whole 2 seconds we were in there. but anyway, now i can say i'ma G cause i survived the hood, what now! haha just playin'.

so my friend's dad, the one that's been missing for 2 months was supposedly spotted by 2 different people in mexico. i guess my friend, E, went to ihop the other morning & saw an old friend there & i guess her mom saw E's dad in ensenada mexico about a month ago & overheard a mexican police officer asking him if he knew that he was a critically missing person in california, & i guess E's dad said he left home because of financial problems. then, after E found that out, the detective called her & told her that another detective from the same station or w/e was in ensenada mexico on vacation about a month ago & also saw E's dad, on a pay phone. SO WTF. i dunno. but something's fishy, if you ask me.

& E told me that that body wasn't her dad's, but i dunno if it's because they tested it or w/e, or if she is just assuming because people are saying they saw him in mexico. if they haven't tested to see if that's his body or not, i hope they still do, you can never be too sure.

so, my friend's dad has been missing for 2 months. but the detective called my friend yesterday & said they think they might have found his body. cause he had a hump in his back, & i guess the body looked like the person had a hump.

it's sad, but if it is him, at least now she knows whether or not he is dead, & now she can start looking into who did it, you know.

friday i went out with some of the girls. we went to a little kick back. @ some guy's apartment. & there was one guy there that was a complete asshole. it was like, since he was a guy & i'm a girl, he was better than me. & if i tried talking to him, he just wasn't having it, but if he tried talking to me, & i didn't respond, he'd get all bitchy. & when he did try to talk to me, he would get right up in my face. so finally i told him "if you want to talk to me, fine, but you need to take 3 or 4 steps back & give me MY SPACE." then he left .

then later, i found a marker, & said i wanted to draw & this guy was like "oh okay, in the room" & so for some reason, i thought he meant that there was paper in the room. oh, i was wrong. in order for me to get paper, he needed something in return. so i was like "eh, nevermind." & i started to walk towards the door. so did he. he closed & stood IN FRONT of the door as though he was trying to block me from leaving. so i just started pointing at pictures on the wall asking who was who. then he finally leaned in for a kiss, & i pulled away, grabbed the door, & walked out. ugh. i hate when guys think they can just get away with stupid shit when a girl is drinking.

anyway, i'm tired. so night.

it's 12:22. someone is thinking about me. gotta make a wish.

okay, so, i was watching strictly sex with dr. drew & some girl in the audience was saying how she was involved with a man whom she liked being sexual with, yet she absolutely hated his personality, who he was. & i forgot dr. drew's answer, cause i'm stupid like that, but it answered my question as to why i was involved with, lets call him "bob."  i mean, it was an obvious answer, it was just good to hear i'm not the only female that gets & stays sexually involved with a guy she can't stand.

also, did you know that sexual attraction has a lot to do with scent? studies show that more men get sexually aroused by the smell of lavender & pumpkin pie. & more women get sexually aroused by the smell of black licorice & cucumber. interesting, eh.

anyway, today was boring, as usual weekdays are. i woke up. sat around. watched some t.v. went online, took a bubble bath . now i am going to sleep, & i shall wake up tomorrow & do the same shit.

peas.

&&               Don’t worry about me,
    in the end I will be fine

I’m just the girl forgotten
the girl always left behind